I’ve realized there is a lot I didn’t know.
First of all, I didn’t know how hard it is to be a mom. I didn’t know how exhausting it is to chase after a toddler or wake up all night with a breastfeeding baby. I didn’t know I could worry so much about someone so small. I didn’t know how important everyone else becomes and how little “me” time I would get. I didn’t know how scared I would feel. I didn’t know how frustrated that 36” little human (or 6ft big human) can make you feel. I didn’t know how important and redeeming those little kisses and I love yous are. I didn’t know how stressful it can feel to manage all of the behind the scenes things like grocery shopping, laundry, birthday gifts, and cooking. I didn’t know how frustrating it is to clean the house and for it to be messed up 2 minutes later. I didn’t know the dishes didn’t do themselves (okay, I lied, I did know that). I didn’t know it’s actually harder to say no than to say yes and give in. I didn’t know how hard it was to punish us. I didn’t know a lot.
But I do now.
Thank you for your hard work, for the sleepless nights, for the worry, the fear, for caring. Thank you for the kisses and I love yous. Thank you for always taking such great care of us. Thank you for grocery shopping, the clean house and delicious meals. Thank you for saying no, for teaching me life lessons and for the discipline. Thank you for believing in me, pushing me, and shaping me into a responsible adult.
Because now I know that being a mom is the hardest yet most rewarding job in the world.